this time of the month was the same month last year where i was so down and so hopeless, i still remember what i am looked like last year, exhausted and looked like a walking mummy. this was also the same time last year that i tried to escape from our hospital going to a friend house for fun. and more importantly happen that time was someone save me from pain, from loneliness and give me the happiness that i deserve and needed that time.
that was the time when my previous boyfriend seen me in their basketball game in our place, watching that ball game was accidentally part of my escapade..lolz*.
****tatagalog muna ako para mas maganda ang kwento hirap mag english..hehehe
that time i decided na tumakas at pumunta sa bahay nila diane, timing naman na may laro pala ung company nila ronald laban sa ibang filipino basketball team sa lugar namin, so kahit kabado i decided to go and watch that game, mahirap kasi on my part kasi hindi alam sa hospital namin na umalis ako and baka makita ako outside the hospital eh lalong lagot na. so ayun nakapanood naman kami ng game nila natapos and the game was awesome challenging and syempre the most happy part of it is they win..hehehe hindi sayang ang pag tili at pag cheer namin sa kanila. then after the ball game uwi na kami and had a small drinking session before dianne gone to duty. ung isang player sa kanila, tinutukso sa akin, i really dont know why, but later nalaman kong may gusto pala un sa akin, he did not pursue courting me kasi marami na daw nauna sa kanya na ka-company din nila. kala nyo un lang ang nangyari that day…kahit ako hindi ko akalaing meron pang nangyari sa pagtakas ko na un. after those days na holiday sa saudi, back to real world ang bawat isa meaning back to work ang lahat, even the industry companies. that was the time i knew from ronald din na merong isang kasama nila sa work ang nagkagusto sa akin after seeing me in the ball game, ronald ask my permission to give my number and email to that person, that time nasabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, why not total broken hearted naman ako, para ma-ease lang ung pain and baka sya na ung para sa akin. so my number was given to him and we begin to give message to one another and one time he called me. getting to know stage, we constantly communicate from exchanging message to chatting thru messenger. getting to know him make me fall for him little by little, knowing his accomplishment, character and all and also by showing his feelings for me make me fall for him too. until i decided to go have a relationship with him. and that was the start of our relationship.
so cute,good and ideal beginning of a relationship for me, but sad part is…that relationship that was started cute and ideal was ended with no closure at all.
if only i can turned back time, if only i knew that it will happen now, hope that i didn’t started it, didn’t fall for him that much, by that i will not feel all the pain i am suffering right now, kahit na limang buwan na ang nakakaraan, never he didn’t crossed my mind, never think of him, and never a day that i wish he will come again, and ask for me to love him again, mahirap ikulong ung sarili sa isang bagay na walang kasiguraduhan, but i do choose to enclosed myself in expecting that one day he will come again, he will hug me again, kiss me again, who will put me on his lap while seeing in my eyes, saying how beautiful am i to him.
katangahan mang hintayin ka, at umasa pang babalik ka, but i will, hanggang dumating ung time na merong bagong papasok sa buhay ko, na mamahalin ako tulad ng pagmamahal na pinakita mo sa akin, i do have till january or February para kahit papano eh mabawasan ung hopes ko na babalik ka sa akin.. and hope god will do blessed me with all the patience and preseverance i needed till that time…:(
