its because i dont want other people to see what i truly feel and to give therapy to my own heart right now, here in my own little world my blog i’ll write random facts like writing in my facebook stat…
this past few weeks, still i keep thinking about my ex boyfriend. half of my mind tells go ahead and move on search for the true happiness life can bring you, but half says just keep on believing and pray that he will come back and make your love story a happy ending.
two months now when both of us parted ways, not official though what he have done to me is quite same as saying, “yeah we are through and we can separate lives from now on. what i really wanted to say is, i am fore to do the break up, because suddenly he change, suddenly he didn’t communicate to me at all, by all means that i know to keep the relationship going i’ve done it for him, but he didn’t do anything to pay back all those effort .
and now i’m still suffering from that, although i’ve telling myself move on, because he does not care for me at all, but still here in my deepest part of heart i still hoping and believing that he will come and do his very best to win me back. that one day when he go back home here in phils, he will look at for me and continue expressing his love for me, i given myself upto december if he will come back home by that month, if the month pass by and he didn’t come back home, maybe that is god sign for me to set myself free from holding on to the relationship that we built way back in saudi. if that time comes and happen, i can say to him,
thanks for giving me a good love story although it is not a happy ending at least i experienced to love by somebody who got attracted to me who sees me through my eyes who makes me happy after a heartache i have gone through from the past, thanks for making me feel like a little princess, your baby and your only love. so sad that we’re not together anymore, but i do appreciate all the things you have shown me and for loving me even if that is for a short time only.
